THE JOURNAL
Stop performing. Start questioning. This is a space for the original thinkers and the boundary-pushers who are tired of the "safe" narrative. These are reflections on leadership, creativity, and the radical truth of what it means to live a life that is actually yours.
WHOSE DREAM
ARE YOU LIVING?
March 14, 2026
When you look around your life, how much of it truly makes you happy? Satisfied? Grateful? How much is your dream—your true north, the hope or direction that guides you—and how much is someone else’s?
After school I was lucky to land my dream job producing on Fashion Television. It opened my eyes and changed me. It was thrilling and intoxicating, but not financially sustaining. Surrounded daily by opulence and fantasy I started to believe that life looked like that and I should chase it. So I chased: Art Director, Creative Director, then Vice President of Marketing and Brand across luxury sectors. Titles and paychecks grew, but so did the ache. My bank account swelled; nothing filled the void inside.
A small, steady voice kept saying, “You’re going the wrong way.” I muted it with wine, with busyness, with pretending. That avoidance marked my darkest time. It also forced the question I’d been avoiding: Whose dream am I living?
Then came a catastrophic crash — a kind of divine intervention — that stripped everything away and left me alone with myself. No distractions, no applause, no expectations. In that quiet, the real question surfaced and would not be silenced:
What do I really want? Not what my parents want. Not what my partner wants. Not what my boss wants. Not what society wants. What do I really want?
The question became the compass of my life. Asking “What do I really want?” pulled me inward and shed light on the parts of me I’d kept hidden—afraid of what others might think of my dreams, desires, and hopes that kept my inner spark dim.
Now, when I look around my life, I see the living embodiment of that question. I make art as part of my daily practice. I get to work with inspiring, imaginative collaborators. I am a proud, spiritually enriched queer man living authentically and fearlessly. I am living my dream.
So ask yourself: If you stripped away duty, habit, and the need for approval, what would you choose to do with your time? Whose story are you telling with your life—yours or someone else’s? What are you willing to give up to step toward that life? If you were honest with no excuses, what do you really want?
DO YOU SEE ME?
DO YOU
HEAR ME?
DO I MATTER?
March 7, 2026
Some of my earliest memories with my mother involve watching The Oprah Winfrey Show. I felt drawn to it from an early age. Oprah and the show gave me hope in a world that often felt dark, and I stayed faithful until the final episode on May 25, 2011.
I watched with an open mind and an open heart—ready to learn, to explore ideas that might make life better. It was a rare space of vulnerability where people lowered their walls and shared their truths. Through people sharing their own life stories I had better reference to understand my own life. The show made me feel less alone.
Over the years there were many bits of advice, but one truth has stayed with me: at our core we’re all asking the same three things—Do you see me? Do you hear me? Does what I say matter to you?
That trio of questions is simple, but it’s the hinge of real connection. When someone truly sees you, hears you, and honours your words, it validates your existence and quiets a loneliness that nothing else can.
That wisdom isn’t abstract; it shows up in daily life—in the tone someone uses when you speak, the attention they give, the small acts that prove your thoughts and feelings matter. When we answer those questions for each other, we don’t just comfort one another—we build trust, meaning, and a connect on a greater level.
Source: The Oprah Winfrew Show. Final Episode. March 25, 2011
THE EROTIC COMPASS: USE YOUR SEXUAL TRUTHS TO GUIDE YOUR LIFE AND LEADERSHIP
March 1, 2027
There’s a quiet power in knowing your own body — not just the mechanics, but the desires, boundaries, and rhythms that make you feel alive. Exploring and mastering your sex life isn’t indulgence; it’s essential training for the rest of your life. It teaches you how to show up, how to listen, how to lead and how to connect.
Sexual self-knowledge demands honesty. To know what turns you on, what drains you, what feels safe and what doesn’t, you have to be brutally truthful with yourself. That truthfulness translates directly into leadership.
Leaders who know their needs and limits communicate more clearly, set healthier boundaries, and make decisions without being swayed by ego or fear. They are accountable and present because they’ve practiced being present where it matters most.
Exploration cultivates curiosity. Trying new things — within consent and safety — requires vulnerability and experimentation. That curiosity keeps relationships fresh and teaches you to tolerate discomfort without shutting down. As a partner, that translates into genuine openness and the ability to co-create experiences rather than perform for approval.
When you can admit, “I don’t know, but I want to find out with you,” you build trust, deepen intimacy, and invite reciprocal vulnerability.
Mastery is not perfection; it’s attunement. Attunement to your sensations, your emotional landscape, and your partner’s cues. That skill makes you a better connector in every sphere. You learn to listen beyond words, to respond instead of react, and to read the subtle shifts in tone and body language that most people miss. Those micro-skills improve conversations, negotiation, parenting, and friendship — wherever human beings are trying to be seen and understood.
Finally, owning your sexual life restores integrity. When your inner life aligns with your outer choices, there’s less cognitive dissonance, less shame, and more energy to invest in meaningful work. You become a steadier presence — the kind of person others want to follow, love, and rely on.
Ask yourself: What parts of your desire are unexplored? Where have you been performing instead of connecting? What small brave step could you take today to bring more honesty and curiosity into your sexual life — and, through that, into every relationship you lead?
STOP TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE WITH
YOUR ART
February 20, 2026
Before I found my creative voice I was trapped making art for other people instead of making work with a perspective to share. Work that tries to speak to everyone usually lands with no one. In an age of endless content, neutrality is camouflage — a sea of sameness that makes you invisible. The opposite is true: the more honestly personal your work is, the deeper it lands with the people it was always meant for.
Being honest and particular isn’t bait or performance. It’s not pretending to be what you think will sell. It’s an unapologetic expression of taste, fear, longing, and point of view. That raw specificity is what an oversaturated audience craves — something real, not another polished clone. When you create from the center of your experience, you stop chasing likes and start inviting the right eyes and ears to connect.
Trust that this work will be recognized. A distinct voice is not a marketing trick; it’s a human signal. People gravitate toward truth they can recognize in someone else. Your authenticity becomes a mirror; your audience brings their life to complete what you leave open, so you don’t have to explain everything.
Great work leaves space. It’s an invitation, not a finished lecture. That open-endedness lets the audience co-create meaning, and when meaning is co-created it travels — into bedrooms, classrooms, dinner tables, late-night conversations — because it earned its place. It doesn’t try to please everyone. It simply speaks, sharply and vulnerably, and finds the people who have been waiting to hear it.
So ask yourself: What part of your perspective have you been hiding to appeal to everyone? Where could you be more honest, even if it narrows your audience? What emotions, contradictions, or obsessions could you lean into right now? What would happen if you left more space for the audience to finish the story?
YOUR SHAME BORES ME
February 2, 2026
In October 2025 I had my first solo show at the Yabu Pushelberg gallery in Toronto. Seeing my work on those walls was a dream come true: a curated collection spanning 15 years of photographic and artistic practice, bringing my horny work and celebrity work into one creative universe—showcased as one vision.
Naming the show felt essential. Words hold power; the right title lingers long after the art comes down and keeps the audience reflecting. That’s how “Your Shame Bores Me” was born.
Before I became a fearless artist, shame was my biggest obstacle. It kept me prisoner—shame inherited from society, culture, peers, education, religion, media. It stopped me from creating, expressing, experiencing, and exploring who I really was.
So I started dismantling that cage, brick by brick. I learned where shame comes from, how it’s used as a control mechanism, and why small minds weaponize it. I began listening to my inner voice with love and openness instead of shame, fear, and disgust. On the other side of inherited shame I found freedom and love for myself.
Your Shame Bores Me is both declaration and horny invitation.
Shame has long policed bodies, silenced desire, and regulated pleasure. I’m not interested. Shame is predictable—exhausting, unoriginal, uninspiring. It bores me.
My work asks: what happens after shame? It lives in desire, play, and vulnerability—where honesty and horniness become radical acts of being. I aim to seduce, disrupt, and reframe how we see ourselves and each other through love and light.
Through photography, image-making, and cultural inquiry I confront the scripts that demand hiding. What if pleasure were practice, and horniness the truth?
Your shame bores me. Your joy, longing, and vulnerability—that’s where art and life begin.
See highlights from my gallery show Your Shame Bores Me here.
POSSIBILITY, DELIVERED.
